What Is Life After Beating Cancer?

"And once the storm is over, 
you won't remember how you made it through, 
how you managed to survive. 
You won't even be sure whether the storm is really over. 
But one thing is certain. 
When you come out of the storm, 
you won't be the same person who walked in. 
That's what this storm's all about. 
-Haruki Murakami
Cielo – went back to Saigon, Vietnam after her cancer treatment in the Philippines.

Have you been wondering what is the life of someone who just beat cancer? Some get the whip hand; for most us, there is no way of stopping to live our new life with, no way. We are almost on the brink of death (I had even imagined myself in a coffin). Some gain angel’s wings and soar up high to heaven.

For some of us that are still alive? We wear our scars like wings, soaring high and embracing our new life. Yes, we love our scars, we claim it as how we claim when we still have that cancer in our body. Our scars are beautiful and it makes us beautiful.

The new life for the most of us is not always the best. Coz’ you know what? We are still the same people who have not yet experienced what it’s like to have cancer. After our treatment, we have to think of our career, life with family and friends. We are also contemplating normal life, socializing and networking. We have to think of growing the circle of friends.

Unfortunately, some are still battling the anxiety inside. Battling the acceptance, forgiveness to oneself. Battling with the reality of life, relationship, economy, and society.

Not everyone has cancer has the same amount of pain, pills that we take, the dosage of chemo drugs administered to us, number of visits for our cobalt treatment and not even with the same length of cut on our skin or inside our body. It’s also similar to our experiences after we beat cancer. Not everyone stays healthy, keeps their job, keep their relationships or even the money they spent during treatment.

Just like before we become a survivor, each of us may have the same suffering, but we still have diverse experiences. May it be sweet or bitter, easy or difficult – the bottom line is, after this storm, we won’t be the same person who walked in. As we turn our life upside down. We know how to fight this battle with cancer. We’ve been in that fear of uncertainty when our lives will be ended. After the storm, we love our life much more we did before cancer. We know death, we’d encountered death. Sure, everyone will come to that time that we have to die, but for us, we don’t want to die without a square fight. We don’t want to die because of this stupid cancer.

Surviving cancer is a lifelong commitment. We commit to love yourself. We commit to making a difference. We commit to spreading hope. We commit to continue the walk. We commit to give the love, strength and hope that we used to have for everyone. We commit to touch lives that have been touched by cancer. We commit to being an inspiration. AND, we commit to believing that there’s a cure for cancer. And in the future, cancer will not be considered as one of the deadliest diseases on earth.

As a survivor, I embrace a new life beyond the illness. I am sharing with you my journey compassionately. It is difficult to start a conversation for those who are suffering from cancer and also to those who are friends and even strangers along the way. But, as a survivor, I am committed to living a life with purpose, passion, and power.

Not only people with cancer is a survivor. Caregivers, family members, friends who are worth the journey are also survivors.

I hope I could hear some testimony from you to continue encouraging myself and everyone who could read this as well.


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What’s On Your Bucket List?

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What’s on your bucket list?

Looking at death in the eye, from the time you are diagnosed with cancer is a life-altering experience.

What is the first thought coming into your mind right away? What did you do and what else you need to be done? Cancer patients, survivors, have you made your bucket list?

Sure, anyone can have their bucket list – inventories for travel experiences, adventure, nature & wildlife, connect & relationships, creativity, entertainment, style (fashion & beauty, why not?), food & drink (even those weird ones), fun stuff (just for fun), personal growth, health & fitness, and transportation. Name it!

According to Science, we have at least 17 to 19 hours in a day to have the best time to do everything.

The capacity of those people who had diagnosed with cancer and those who lived life without any clue about their life expectancy is not only the physical ability to be, do, have, and experience in life – it’s the hope and the determination to live life to the fullest.

Bucket list for cancer patients and survivors create a chance to make life long dreams come true. It especially helps the terminally ill to be inspired about what’s life left and to be an inspiration for those who will be left behind. Kicking the bucket need not to be physically involved or a strenuous activity for some or even for everyone. It could be a process of life, to enjoy it as long as someone is still living. They are the things that need to figure out what someone really want to do with the rest of its life.

Aside travel experiences and adventures, here are the lists of simple things that anyone can do:

  1. Beat the odds.
  2. Connect to the people who have inspired you the most in your life and let them know.
  3. Conquer your biggest fear.
  4. Forgive and forget.
  5. See the stars at night.
  6. Play UNO card.
  7. Write a diary or journal.
  8. Be with family & friends.
  9. Take photos of nature and people.
  10. Watch sunrise & sunset.

They don’t cost a thing. Don’t wait until you will be diagnosed by a deadly disease. Have you made your bucket list yet?


Live the dream.
Design your best life.
Dare to live fully.